Dear lord,

hai.
does it happen with you and your child that you don't agree with what she's doing, and yet you can't seem to bring yourself to tell her that, becus, it's something very very emotional and she's stuck in this very sensitive period. you fear you may hurt her. You fear that when you are heard, she's hurt.

but really does she listen? I'm doubting becus I don't trust her lies. I can't tell apart sometimes what's the truth from her. I can't tell sometimes whether shld I be understanding her or shld I be pitying her or shld I be loving her. shld I then forgive...

I seem to be changing. At one point, I wanna help her. But at another point, I dunno how. is it just an excuse to not know how? I mean..yes I trust Your plan for her, but how do I help?

What would Jesus do??? Lord, teach me to be more like you. change my thoughts Lord, and change my heart. It's littered with such horrible thoughts that I'm really wondering am I glorifying your name?

Teach me to love her. How do I love her?

Lord, what if you have said, tried, and at that moment she seems ok, days later she cries again secretly in her heart and is shattered? Will you blame yourself for what you have said earlier? I dunno.

I can't possibly not care. But I know not how to care.


your child.